







ACK! The weather here has been crazy! Where is my 105 degree, sunny, sweltering state that I love so much? Driving in to work and home from work the last 2 days has been really scary- there is ice everywhere and us Texans have no clue what we are doing. LOL. Unfortunately it seems like my path from home to work has been mostly neglected by the city workers. Probably because everyone in our neighborhood is retired and aren't leaving their houses anyways and because we aren't close enough to the Super Bowl to be important ;-) I haven't experienced the negative wind chill feel in a while- since my Iceland days, in fact, but it is NOT something I miss! Boo you Old Man Winter!
I felt really off today. My throat is burning and my stomach is cramping. :( I also feel bloaty and gross. It's days like today that I wish my jeans were Jeggings or Pajama Jeans (lol) but instead they are stiff denim and they are cutting into my stomach a little bit. Thankfully they weren't even able to be buttoned 2 weeks ago so tight with bloating is an okay start! I was supposed to go to a preview Weight Watchers at Work meeting yesterday but they cancelled it. I'm thinking about joining. It will be nice to have the accountability and the plan. I'm also really intrigued by their new Points Plus plan.
Anyways, I hope you all are having an amazing day! : ) Stay warm wherever you are!
Love,
Tania
It's an interesting balance.
Life.
Sometimes you are on the up and up and there is nothing that you feel can hold you back- you are soaring, flying, free and well!
Sometimes you are in (as one of my personal hero's Anne of Green Gables would say) the depths of despair.
Lately, it's been high and then deep.
But through it all- there is hope. Hope that I am not alone, hope that there is better to be had, hope that I can succeed and hope that even if my worst fears do come true, in the end it really will all be alright.
Since blogging last a lot has happened. I've started my own photography business. I've gotten a part time job editing dissertations. I enjoyed the holiday season with my family. I almost lost my full time job (I didn't). I was set free from unnecessary guilt. I almost was offered an amazing opportunity and in the last few moments I lost it.
Some things haven't changed at all. I still have an incredible husband. I still have a faithful, merciful God. I still have the most wonderful friends and a loving family.
My circumstances haven't really changed, but my heart has. Where there was a shallow, 2 dimensional, surface level beliefs in basic concepts there is now a deep, abiding, 3 dimensional, raw, real faith that only suffering could etch and pull out. If you have ever had any really crummy time period in your life, whether it lasts 2 days or 2 years you have the choice to choose how you will let it affect you.
Will you become embittered and hard, or will you allow the experience to shape and mold you into something even lovelier, even warmer, even more empathetic towards man kind? Will you eventually look back and be grateful for that time frame, or will you curse those days over and over. Forgiveness towards others is an important healing step- but even more so is healing towards yourself.
As you have been forgiven- forgive others, forgive yourself. Love others, love yourself, love your past, love your current, love your future. Love your body, love your mind, love your God, love your neighbor with every ounce of your being.
So here I am again. Back on this journey. I guess I was never really off path in the first place! :)
Love.